The semester is approaching and I am moving into a new dorm room in a day and a half. I am not looking forward to living on campus again..I have no idea what I was thinking when I made THAT decision. Damnit. Anyways, this summer has been amazing and I am only half-ready to go back to school.
I want to go back to learn more, contribute to a local/small town community, and to get my future rolling. However, I don’t want to go back to same old parties and thousands of look-a-likes. I feel disconnected. I think I miss the downtown scene and the cool people I’ve met but that is clouded by my distaste in everything else. I don’t want to leave my life in DC, I don’t want to leave the man I’ve fallen for this year. Me going back to school will be a test for us and it is a very scary, unsettling thought. I know what I want, though: I want my relationship to compliment my lifestyle and my goals. I don’t want it to consume me. This semester should be very, very interested. I hope it goes as planned but I have learned that life always has its way of screwing things up. Praying for the best.
Too many thoughts going on in my head…overwhelmed…undecided on how to feel.